today, i write of my state to the beloved,
with words, neither here nor there
~
your absence is felt so strongly
that i am awake while sleeping,
asleep while awake
my heart is nothing and an entire ocean:
waters flow through themselves and disappear
i rise and set in a weakening rhythm
i look for you so long in the distance that i fade into it,
but still i am apart from you
~
in other language all of this
makes sense to me,
whether you understand it or not
if only my voice reaches to you,
that would be enough
your absence takes up residence in my eyes
every day i look down your road
to find you have gone farther and farther
every day i see my own eyes
and they ask me, where am i,
where am i?
saara 